I have wanted to post this for a couple weeks now, but I haven’t really had the time to get it out of my head. I’m still not really sure how I want to say all the stuff I have to say, but let’s give it a shot and I hope you can follow along.
As you know I am a follower of Christ, and the events of this last year have brought me a bit closer to the Lord. For several years now I have listen almost strictly to Christian music, I enjoy the positive message and it helps keep me focused on the Lord and all he has done for me. Now, many of you may be thinking “church music” when I say Christian music. It’s actually Contemporary Christian music and there are a wide range of styles out there. I am more into the Rock/Metal style of music than I am Pop and Gospel. I listen to Air1 when I am in the car and I have a bunch of different stuff on my Zune, which I use at work. One of my favorite bands is Skillet, they are the band Daniel and I went and saw for his birthday this year. Well, one of their songs is the inspiration for this post.
I am guilty of listening to the music and not really hearing the words. This is not always the case, but most of the time I get caught up in the instrumentals and don’t really hear what the song is saying. (ADD Moment: Casting Crowns has Awesome lyrics and a great message behind most of their songs) Well, the other day the words to “Rebirthing” by Skillet managed to make it all the way in and it has become one of my favorites.
I could go into a very long post but I will do my best to keep it as short as possible, that way I don’t lose you. As you know if you have been following my story over this past year, I was about 75% paralyzed in January of 2009, I was a victim of Guillain-Barré Syndrome. I consider myself lucky, I was not totally paralyzed, I wasn’t on a ventilator and I was at least able to communicate with those taking care of me; many GBS victims can’t say that. During my time in the hospital and through physical therapy I did my best to lean on the Lord for help. There were times when I questioned why (Job did the same thing, so I don’t feel so bad), but I never doubted God or His plans for me.
I am going to post the lyrics to Rebirthing, please read them and if you are a GBS survivor see if you can relate to what Skillet is saying, both in a physical and spiritual sense. If you have never experienced GBS please read these lyrics and maybe you can gain a very slim understanding of what we GBS survivors feel as our bodies are being destroyed from the inside.
Skillet – Rebirthing
From the album Comatose
I lie here paralytic inside this soul
Screaming for You till my throat is numb
I wanna break out, I need a way out
I don’t believe that it’s gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this womb I’m suffocating
Pre-chorus:
Feel Your presence filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take You in
I’ve died
Chorus:
Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love, wanna live for You and me
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my life, wanna give You everything
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow
Right now
I lie here lifeless in this cocoon
Shedding my skin cause I’m ready to
I wanna break out, I found a way out
I don’t believe that it’s gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In the womb I’m suffocating
Pre-chorus:
Chorus:
Bridge:
Tell me when I’m gonna live again
Tell me when I’m gonna breathe You in
Tell me when I’m gonna feel inside
Tell me when I’m gonna feel alive
Chorus:
I come alive somehow
Right now
I come alive somehow
I come alive somehow
Label: worshiptogether.com
View the lyrics: http://www.air1.com/music/lyrics.asp?2543
Hear a clip of the song: http://www.air1.com/listen/?href=/broadcast/stream.aspx?href=/Audio/hooks/2543.rm&onespeed=true
Remember God is good; all the time God is good.
Saved by the Blood,
Donovan
Donovan Sachs 
I too have found myself listening to Christian music the majority of the time of the last few years. I love Skillet and Casting Crowns as well.
I just wanted to say that Christian music has the ability to remind us of God’s unending love for us, and has the ability to bring us close to Him when we most need Him to hold our hand. Maybe listening to Christian music most of the time is a sign that we’ve both been needing to be very close with God.
There is a reason why we do everything, and that reason is Jesus!
Many blessings,
Dot
Amen! Couldn’t have said it better myself.
Thank you Dot!
Donovan,
Thank you for sharing your story about GBS. While there are vast materials on the technical side of this, there’s not much that I have found in the way of personal blogging. Perhaps you know of some which I have missed (I read about Jennie). I’ve had GBS for 13 months now, and have been inspired to share my story via http://curtune440.wordpress.com/ . I would appreciate it if you would give it a look, and perhaps add it to your links. I feel that the more hope we can give to others, the more God can move through the messages into the hearts of those who suffer. Thanks,Curt
Donovan,
I like your style. Big-time.
Thanks for your honesty, about your struggles and doubts, in the midst of what you’re dealing with. God is good. I don’t UNDERSTAND Him, many times — but He is good.
Thanks for listening to Air1, too, by the way. Honored to be part of your story, even a little bit!